I'm a Multiple

With MPD or Dissociative Identity Disorder, DID. I'm also a bit autistic. This blog is for all parts of me to write about anything and everything without judgement or censorship.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Honest Thoughts Home

Oh, to find a place
Where honest thoughts can be spoken without judgement
(head bowed, slightly beaten these days)
Joined a group that helps others but continually shows photos of distressed children. Definitely thinking of leaving it, most specifically for that reason alone.
My autism, I've never understood how to work in a group. They don't get the autism thing. Confusion, frustration. To have to agree with those in charge.
Aspergers is a solo team sport.
Still physically feeling like crap. Unable to walk without great effort. Sleeping 15 hours a day, but it's not near enough. Constant exhaustion wears me down.
Went out with a friend this week. First time in months. Had a great time, but for the exhaustion repercussion. Body working on getting stronger, but I lag.
Hoping for peace. I've heard about it.
Therapy pretty intense these days.
Each subject matter a frustrated, emotional, sphere ready to burst. Powder keg like, in terms of intensity.
Sitting farther back from therapist these days. We, too volitale, need space, swinging arms and kicking feet.
 That's it for now.

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