I have a person, an alternate personality, that I just met. She is 10 years old. Her job was to sit up, backed into a corner of whatever bed I was sleeping in, and watch for my dad. She stays awake all night, finds sleep to be a highly vulnerable, unprotected, outlandish thing. So her job was to alert me, to whisper in my ear and gently touch my shoulder, and tell me when my dad was approaching. She is hypervigilant, terribly scared and always on guard.
She talked to Therapist for the first time today. At one point telling Therapist, "I don't know you." To which Therapist replied, "I know you don't." Therapist is pretty good about spotting new people and switching.
I was wondering why I was sitting up against the wall unable to sleep last night. Now I know.
Not sure how to try and explain that we don't live in the parents house anymore and we are safe.
If you take away a persons job...they fear evaporation. Everyone has a very specific function, it's all they know how to do. The job, composes them.
It was nice to see her and hear her voice, see her mannerisms today. She's pretty cool. :)
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