The last three weeks have been a dull blur. One overwhelming incident after another has subdued my body into fatigue and sleep laden shutdown. I spend most of my time sleeping, allowing my body to rest and destress. There is little resembling functionality or normalcy. I feel useless. And that it's not safe to go outside even if I had the physical strength. I've accomplished nothing. It feels like unexpected, chaotic events out side of myself have complete control over me.
Feel useless. The unpredictability of knowing who or what will push me over the edge into the helplessness of extreme shutdown fatigue. I should be discouraged, but I don't really have the strength to care. I need sleep, sleep, sleep, calm and predictability. I've cancelled all unnecessary appointments, meetings and outings.
The slumbering Aspie retreats.
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